This week was really the most happening week of my life. Everything happened this week. It started on the friday. I'm seriously at a loss. I dont know what I should do. Talked to someone about it, and it helped slightly. And on Sat, my beloved grandpa passed away. I know its a fact, life still goes on. Many people have consoled and pushed me on but what I really need isnt that I guess. I need time. I still feel the pinch of sadness everytime I walk into my grandpa's room wanting to take a look at him just to realise that he isnt around anymore. Just by staring at the photographs of him alone can make me tear. I really miss my grandpa alot. I want him back. If I'm hurting so much at the loss of my grandpa, I'm sure my dad feels much more. Its the first time and probably almost the last I would see him crying. I really want to rewind time and spend all the time with my grandpa. Now I've learnt and I'm going to treasure and treat my grandma extremely well, even better than before. I hope that my grandpa will come back and visit me in my dreams soon. I really want to see him again. :(

After that followed a week of grand funeral. So shocked at the response. So my relatives were right about my grandpa being an influential and respected man. Everyday there would be at least 100s of people at the funeral. Ytd was the worse, I felt like I was torn apart as I watch my grandfather's coffin moving into the cremating thing. I still cant get over and I dont think I will ever get over it.

Today's someone's day, and I've got some things to say but I'm not sure if I should post it here. Anw Happy Birthday friend. (: