Okay yes. Today's a bad day. Everything's coming in at the wrong time.

I cleared stuff but still. There are other words locked in my heart. I just don't know how to say it.

I admit that i am really bad at handling relationships.

Yes. I am immature, i know. And that's why people should not even like me as in in that way.

I finally bottled my feelings today, unfortunately only after talking to some people.

And its not really those people, its everyone that made an effort to show care and concern towards me. Everyone that shared what they feel. Everyone that told me what was the right thing to do. Everyone that guided me when i needed it. Everyone that will always be there for me. Everyone that cheered me up.

I finally made a huge step in changing my life today. Life has been seriously bad after i enter TA. Firstly, its more competitive. Secondly, I miss my best friend in TK. Thirdly, guys. Yes guys. Relationships. I believe that it will come naturally and its not surprising that i like any guys in TA or whatsoever. Its natural, but after everything, i keep telling myself not to like anyone. For one reason, i am afraid of being hurt. And for another, I don't see the point in getting into a relationship.

Since TA1, i rmb. It started and ended. And after that ppl started teasing me about this another person and they are still teasing. After that it was him. After him, i decided that I should not like anymore ppl. These are ppl that i liked, within 2 years. Yes 2 years. So yeah.

Friendship's what matters to me now. And to my friends, thanks for being there. And to those two person that made me cried (i know its not on purpose but yeah) i hope that you'll know that the reason i broke down was cos i cared.

Random but I realised crying over guys is just stupid. Not really stupid but yeah. I rather cry over losing a friend then losing a boyfriend or potential boyfriend or whatever shit.

There's still much more that i want to say, but for now,

I WISH THERE WAS NO SUCH THING AS LOVE IN THE WORLD. I DON'T CARE WHAT IT MEANS, OR HOW IMPORTANT IT IS. FOR NOW. I JUST WANT IT OUT OF MY LIFE.

KTHNXBAI.