Many thing has been going thru my head recently.
Why is the whole world like against me.
Oh well, seriously, lets start of with monday this week

Monday had HC stuff, talk with Jasmine and Charmaine at night till 9.30
Things werent going very smoothly. (dinner out)

Tuesday was bad, long day plus group interview and kidsread when i was alr exhausted. Down down down down down... feeling super down. Jasmine is absent. Alone, really alone to fight the war. Struggling to keep myself happy for the whole day. I didnt want ppl seeing me like this. Really couldnt take it. Tried holding my tears back. But somehow, it just fell, really fell. And at that moment i really din want ppl to see me, but some ppl saw, some ppl.. Anw, thanks ppl who consoled me that day. And when i tell ppl i am okay, sometimes i am not. And i guess some ppl kinda know that i wasnt happy that day. MEP was bad too. I found out JCT tested me on lotsa things which i wasnt really well prepared. (dinner out)

Thoughts on tues: You really oughta be more observant and do not neglect other ppl's feelings

Wednesday wasnt good either. My HC speech was super crappy. I kinda gave up on HC aft the speech. Rushed off for training aft CT. Supposed to be an awesome day with lunch, civics and contact time at the right timings with a good speaker, but somehow, it wasnt that good. I didnt perform to my best during training. And i really felt tired. It was till someone told me that she was happy that things began to go smoother for me too. Checked my phone, and yeah. (dinner out)

Thurs, KABOOM. Ultra long day, not everything went well. Tuition--> Duathlon talk...
It was only at night that i realised that KL couldnt take part in Duathlon, he has some camp and stuff on. Understood. Havent done mnlx5 and havent studied for kaocha. Wondering about something i shouldnt be thinking about. Which made my day pretty pensive.

Friday, told Sabs that i wasnt running for Duathlon. And wheel couldnt run too, that leaves her running alone. Felt super bad. And i know you are angry with me. Well. HC results were out. And yeah. Expected. I alr werent feeling well. Slight fever and stuff liddat. They werent here. It was only during lunch did i start on one of the chapters of kaocha. Cos i din realise that i fell asleep while revising the previous night. Oh wells. Lunch time, Chubin smsed me saying that he can be my partner cos SW was tired aft NATs. Told Sabs that i could run with her. But at the same time, I think i pissed Steven off. Shall not elaborate. Yeah get the idea, the whole world is angry with me. Bowling training + team dinner. Saw Brenda at TM hahah spastic. CHEENAPOREAN.

Today: Duathlon. It went better than i expected though my muscles are aching like crap nao. I am sorry for running so slowly. Super guilty. Lunch was good. WATER (L) I really loved water, and treasured every drop of water i had today.

I want to know how you are thinking. Sometimes, i wished that i could lead a life without love.





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